Question

"I made it a possibility for the rising Seniors to be better prepared for their last, stressful year at Chinquapin."

No I am definitely not better today than I was at the beginning of this year. I have let everything that mattered to me slip away. I have lost hope for my future. Of course I know I'm going to college, but this project rather than help me find a passion was an extensive time consuming project that will ultimately not make a positive impact in my life. However, I am happing I will be helping the Juniors, but I found this project much too late. I admittedly don't care much for the project, there are several more important things as a senior at Chinquapin.

I want to think that it was my lack of interest in the project that has caused me to work the minimum, but I know that the reason I don't work hard is because I absolutely detest the idea of forcing people to do something they don't have time to do. I understand that I can't give 100% because there is no time left over for this side project. Regardless of my feelings, I don't think I've grown this semester. I Honestly, think I've taken 100 steps back from where I used to be.

I think the reason I'm not pursuing my real passion: photography, is because it was snatched away from me. I can't even believe how much I cared about the "other club" I did. But it has shown me to not invest yourself into something all the way.